I heart Sonic

I just downed a chili cheese coney from Sonic. I am STUFFED. I always order these damn heathen dogs when I am starving. It isnt until my very last bite, that I assess the situation and realize.. "WOW! I just ate a foot of hot dog meat." I wanna gag just thinking about it.

I also ALWAYS say that this will be my last coney dog. LAST ONE! But nope.. it never fails to sneak back into my life. Maybe its because I had to dress up like one, I feel a deeper connection to the dog.

When I was 16 years old I worked at Sonic as a carhop.. I came into work one day late. So in order to teach me a lesson he strapped the hot dog costume on me. He thne marched my coney butt to the front of the Sonic which happened to butt up to an extremely busy road.

I procceeded to jump up and down and wave to passing by vehicles. I was actually having fun! Until these two boys came up to me and asked if they could get a picture with me. Thankfully my face was covered by the coney weiner. That is the only time it is okay to have a weiner in your face. When they asked I said "Okay!" But totally masked my voice..just in case they came back!!

Aw...those were the days... I love you Coney Dog!

Need A Vacay

Do you ever feel aloof? Out of body? Catch my drift...sometimes I feel as though I am living life looking in on things. Not really experiencing things hands on..but rather just looking in on it. Does that make any sense?

It has gotten worst since having Jackson. I think its a time issue. I just realize now more than before how quickly time slips away. Which should really make me want to live in every moment. It is just hard to explain. I kinda feel like I have been doing things the way they are supposed to be.. just like a routine.

I think the only treatment for this would be a vacation. I mean come on now, how awesome does that picture look up there? You cant do that shit everyday...I would love to go anywhere really, anywhere other than here at this point. I want some excitment.. some thrill..some.. some...pow!

Now dont get me wrong.. things are going pretty good right now. Too good if you ask me. I know I cant be on this much of a high for too long...something is bound to happen. Or maybe not. What if I am stuck in monotiny for life. How boring. I dont mean being with the same person by the way.. I am just talking about nothing really changes because everything around me is relying on me.

I guess that is just another side effect of motherhood.

I got this off the Dooce website and just about peed my pants. Which wouldnt have been good since I am in bed. I haved pissed the bed in months...I mean years.

Funny Japanese

New Casa

Have you ever tried to renovate your new house with a toddler running around your ankles? It is quite a daunting task, one I never want to do again. So much so that I am the most exhausted I have been since summer cheerleading camp. I thought chanting cheers in a hot sun while climbing the hillsides at Texas State was daunting..nope.

By the way, daunting seems to be the word of the day. So everytime you read it I want you to go crazy along with all your furniture in the house and the talking genie in the frame. Mecka-lecka-high..Mecka highy hoe.. That is for the oldies..

Anyways. I painted trim, walls, caulked( I am very good at handling caulk) dug up dirt, moved rocks, and cleaned. I did all that. Me. Maegan. I know. It is amazing. It is amazing, and daunting..ahhhhhhhhhh!

Andrew and I move into our new little home on March 1st. Isnt that crazy? A year ago today I was sitting around my house feeling sorry for myself, waiting for some man to knock on my front door and whisk me(and Jack) away with him. Well, I am proud to say I am no longer waiting aorund.. Thankfully. Although how awesome would it be if Andrew busted through my front door right now and was strong enough to lift my butt up? I just ate too so I know I am a few pounds heavier.

We decided to rent out my grandma's house. But before moving in, we are trying to make it as close to perfect as we can. This includes all the renovations, that we arent entirely paying for all by our lonesomes.

I will say, it will be the best looking place I have ever lived in and I cant wait to be settled in. I will also say that if I have to look at another gallon of paint, I might vomit. I think we are having a mini house warming party and you are all invited, but you gotta bring a plant. Oh and....daunting!

Happy Valentines Day Y'all!!!!!!

Hope your day is full of love...wheter it be from a man, woman, child, dog or B.O.B....Whatever floats your boat.

In the Blink of an Eye

So today it hit me. I was watching the George Lopez show, which I am sure you didnt know was so insightful, but it is. George was talking about one of his kids, Carmen or Max...I dunno, and he said something about how he they were a baby he raised them and then he wanted them to leave like every child does. This is when it hits me. Jackson is not going to be baby for much longer and someday he is going to leave me. How depressing is that?

Yes, he may frustrate the heck out of me when I know he is exhausted but all he wants to do is jump from pillow to pillow and laugh. Or it may be frustrating that he cant sit still through an entire meal, just one time. Or the fact that his favorite thing to do in the whole wide world, it seems, is to push the buttons on the t.v.-he especially LOVES to do this at the climax of any show you are watching at the moment.

But honestly, how lucky am I to even get to experience this stuff with him? Really. If I do say so myself. But its the same for every mother not just me.

It already seems that I blinked and he is 15 months old. Sooner or later I am going to blink and he will be 10, then blink again and he will be 18..and so on and so on. You get the picture. It is like that Kenny Chesney song, "Dont Blink"

Now I am doing something I told myself I wouldn't do...get all sappy in my blogs. Well for the time being I am going to try and enjoy my time with him now and cherish everything that he has to offer. I am also going to look into getting one of those devices that eyedoctors use during laser eye surgery.....ya know, so I dont have to blink anymore.

Cut Me Some Slack

Somedays I wish I was already graduated from college, so that I could already be able to provide for Jackson and myself. I wish that I could at least speed time up a bit, to get it over with. It seems like it is taking FOREVER. I am still a freshman. I cant believe I took 2 years off... I kick myself everytime I open up a text book. I think at the rate I am going...15 hours a regular semester and 6 hours in the summer.. I should be at a University by Fall 2009. UGH. Then I haveb 2 more years at UTSA... then I graduate.

I mean I am ready to tackle it. I am ready to give it all I got. I am.. and its going good so far. But this is one of those times I wish I had a remote control like Adam Sandler had in Click.

Then...there are days were I think that people don't realize all that I have on my plate. Personally, I think I function better when I have things to keep me busy. If I dont stay busy the lazier I become. But really, right this minute I kinda of feel overwhelmed. As far as homework goes I have:

Art-Research a museum over the internet.. give as much info as I can, write a 6 pg. essay. give examples..I have 2 weeks left to do this one.

Drugs & Human Health- choose a side on the legalization of marijuana, write an essay-due Sunday

Psych-Read a ch. before Thurs., do humanatarian work..8 hours worth, do next essay due on 2/12

Economics-Fill in the notes from today's class, read ch.4, study for exam that is next tuesday

Photography-Research Man Ray, bring findings into class on Thursday.

That is just what I have going on for school this week. I also have work every M, W, F

I have to pick out paint colors for my new house, I have to paint this weekend. Oh Yeah! I am moving out soon... fogot to mention that. I move out 3/1 so that is only a couple weeks away...stressing about that.

Just a bunch of stuff people...a bunch of stuff... Jackson is my little cherry on top of all that junk. Somedays I want to pull my hair out and other days I want a little credit. I am doing all of this and still am a functioning human being. So yeah, I forgot to take my clean clothes up to my room for a couple days...yeah, I havent showered since Monday night....yeah I already blew my $200 paycheck that I just got last friday on daycare and gas...cut me some slack. I'm busy.

ABC's and 123's

Aside from being peed on, seeing my son discover his penis and catching him eating the dog food.. the next best thing about being a mom is to see your child learn new things. Jackson has been on a major learning kick lately. I guess my $180 in daycare is being well spent.

So far he has learned to do the moonwalk. I dont really know where or why this originated. It must be a defense mechanism he uses on the other kids at daycare. He slowly backs away from you as if he is some sort of sleuth, escaping trouble. He likes to back right into a wall. It is really quite funny to watch him concentrating on each step backwards.

Another thing he has learned is where his belly button is located. He loves to rub on his belly..as soon as you take his shirt off and let him run around naked and free, he rubs on his chest and belly like he has never felt skin before. Its too funny. Reminds me of a fat old man who rubs his belly after a rather large meal of chicken fried steak. But if you ask him where his belly button is he will proudly show it off. I must admit its the cutest dang button. He is also quite fascinated with where my old belly button used to be... now it looks like a cavernous hole.

Jack has also added a couple words to his growing vocabulary. I am finally gettinf over the fact that I have a walking and functioning human being following me around and now sooner rather than later I will have a blabbering one too. I cant wait to hear, "Mom, mom, mom, mom, mommy, mommy, mother, mom". I just know Jack will be that kid. But that is still a ways away.. for now his new things are ,"Uh-Oh" -he does this whenever something is dropped or when he drops something which is just about every 15 seconds and "Thank You" which is really "Tay-tu"-this is when he hands you something.

I love watching him explore and discover...and thank goodness for daycare because I am one lousy teacher!