Ray of Sunshine

Some days I feel as though life is at a stand still. That there are all types of things going on around me and I just cant seem to catch on to any of it. Kind of like I keep getting stuck at all the red lights. Or like the tickets run out right when I get to the front to buy one. Does that make any sense?

I got stopped today while I was pumping gas and this complete stranger told me that I looked really fun. That, because I was laughing at a hilarious text message, that I was going to have a good day. That he wished he had someone like me, to bring light into his day, everyday. Nice huh?

I really, couldn't help but laugh, because I mostly feel like the little grey rain cloud that follows people around, and here was this complete stranger that said I was rather a ray of sunshine. Really?

I don't know if its the lack of spontaneity that is missing. Or perhaps the feeling of always being inadequate. Whoa, I bet you didn't know you were signing up for my own personal therapy session...

I guess I just feel that I am not living the life I signed up for. Everyone has pitfalls, road blocks, diversions. I guess I am just in need of something new. If I wasn't totally against it at the moment, this is where I would usually insert a new daring haircut.

So I am ready world.. bring it on.. something new. Something engaging and excited. Bring. It.