So it begins

Actually it started a long time ago, pelvic pain that is.

OMG. It feels like I gave birth to a semi truck. Nice mental image huh??

I am really trying hard not to look like a waddling fool, but I really cannot help it. I am waddling with every step. Just call me the human penguin lady.

I tried going to prenatal yoga. I would go religiously at the beginning of this pregnancy so I could avoid this pain. I knew it was inevitable pain since I had it BAD with Jackson. But alas, it has reared its ugly head and is now taking over. It hurts to go to yoga now. It hurts to walk..sit..lay. Anything. I still have 13 weeks of this shiz!

These babies have no idea what we go through...

27th week

Why is it that I cannot put the fear into my child?

Let me re-phrase that.. I don't want my child to fear me per se, but know that when I, mommy, speak I mean business just like Daddy does. I just don't understand. Growing up, both my parents were easy... They know this. Its not exactly a family secret. I knew that if I whined enough or did things enough that nothing would happen. I wouldn't get spanked, etc. But that is not gonna fly with Jack.

Sorry Mom and Dad! Hindsight IS 20/20

I can tell him 20, 000, 000 times not to jump on the couch and he will do it when he thinks I am not looking. But if daddy says it, he sits there like a perfect little angel. Doesn't even put his feet on the couch. WTF?

What is in men's voices that we women don't have?

I am stern with him and I always follow through.. granite, he may have two or more chances before I really spank his butt. But still! I just don't get it.. gets annoying. I want to be taken serious too, ya know? I wanna feel validated damnit!

on baby news-
I am 27 weeks and according to some publications I am now in my 3rd trimester. Last one! No more trimesters after this.

I gave myself a panic attack yesterday at the thought that there is no turning back now. I have to get this baby out of me somehow. I guess since I know what to expect, I am even more so freaked out about labor. I remember with Jacks, it was a lot easier than I expected. But every labor is different.

Little things like this have been freaking me OUT. Example,

I was doing dishes the other night, Husband watching t.v. (typical), Jack was in bed and the dog was laying at my feet. It was pretty much a calm evening. I thought about the fact that in 13 weeks OR LESS, this quietness will be NON EXISTENT. I will more than likely be pulling out my hair crying in a corner in 13 weeks OR LESS.

But for real, there will be no more quiet evenings. Or quiet mornings. Or non hectic, relaxing days. No more days off consisting of lounging on the couch watching a movie. No more reading a a relaxing book. NO MORE SLEEP.

The very thought makes me think twice about this whole baby stuff. Cant we just give birth to 3 year olds? (shuddddder)

I crawled into bed after my mini panic attack moment and asked hubby if he too was nervous about all that I just mentioned. His answer was quick and precise, "Not At All".

Yeah...we shall see buddy!

My Kind of Nesting

I've been watching a ridiculously large amount of home makeover shows. I'm sure my husband finds this thrilling(NOT!) I am completely in love with the show Color Splash.. I wish that David Bromstad could come and redo my living room and kitchen...ah I would be in HEAVEN.

But I guess I can settle for my husband.. he can take his shirt off while he is working to give it the Bromstad touch.

I really wish I had a huge windfall so I could invest in some bad ass home up dos. Lately this is my list:

• redo front door. I want to stain it a darker color I think it will be a nice contrast to the blond wood floors we have.


• Butcher block counter tops. I found the ones I want at IKEA


• New kitchen appliances. Mainly refrigerator and dish washer.. in stainless steel finish


• Re-paint kitchen


• Refinish the kitchen cabinets


• Paint our master bathroom


• Turn study/extra room into Baby's room


• New fence in the back yard.

Is that SO much to ask for?!!? Didn't think so....

Would you categorize this as nesting? or just being plain crazy?

I've also decided that I wanna write. Maybe its a part of this creative bug I got. I want to write a novel. That shouldn't be so hard either right? While maintaining my household and my sanity...also include write best selling novel to the list. I can do it.. I like to keep myself on my toes. Keep life interesting, ya know? Its too short to be unfulfilling.

Taboo Pregnancy Craving

I have really been wanting soft cheeses. Isn't that the weirdest craving? I love me some Gorgonzola and some Feta cheese. Last night I had some goat cheese.. Some people do much worse when they are pregnant.. RIGHT?

24 weeks and growing...

I'm 24 weeks already, or 6 months. I have 15 weeks and 5 days until my due date but who's counting?

This baby is REALLY starting to kick. After I eat its like I woke a sleeping beast inside me. The hubby and I get a kick(ha! Kick..get it?) sitting back and watching my stomach move all around like an alien is inside me. Its good stuff. Matter of fact it was out entertainment last Friday night. Sad huh?

I've gained 15 lbs. so far. 15. pounds. UGH. That's so much...I really DONT want to gain 53 lbs. like I did with Jack. But I'm on my way! I just cannot get a hold of my eating. Its like my brain just doesn't get it. Immediately after eating anything I HAVE to have something sweet...I've already trained everyone around me. I'm seriously dreading my glucose test next doctors appt.

My tummy is nice and round now. All of the medium maternity gear I bought months ago is starting to fit..even kinda getting tight.

geez....only 15 weeks and 5 days to go........

Holy Moly its 2010

I haven't blogged in awhile. December was a BIT of a whirlwind. Glad that's over with.

2009 was a CRRRRAZZYY year.. I was kinda sad to see it go. 2010 has a lot to live up to. But I'm sure it will be equally great with the arrival of our baby girl.

We have settled with the idea of having a girl. Everyone is so excited! She even got some gifts this year. We picked a name and we absolutely love it. I'm so excited!

As of today I am 23 weeks into the pregnancy. The baby is a little over a pound and she is moving like crazy. It took my husband FOREVER to feel her kicks but he was finally able to about a week ago. It was a major milestone.

I had a little scare the other day when I fell stomach first outside. Thankfully everything was/is ok.

I cant believe I only have 17 weeks to go...if she is like Jack then maybe only 15? One can hope right?

Jackson is really excited about his impending baby sister. He frequently talks to my belly and most recently tries to see her through my belly button. Its hilarious. He wants to take her on a roller coaster and to a playground at his school. We will see if he is this enthusiastic when we force him to let her tag along when he is 16...

Thinking Blue...

GOT PINK!

I apparently have terrible mother's intuition...

My family is completely excited, as am I. I honestly never thought I'd have a girl just because I wanted one SO much. I'm only 19 weeks and 6 days..but I am already shopping for stuff. I feel like I need to get a heads up on all these clothes I will be purchasing in the future. There is a LOT to pick from! Not to mention the accessories...and the shoes! ugh..I love it.

Jackson is excited about having a sister. Mostly because he doesn't understand yet what it entails...barbies not trucks, baby dolls not batman toys. He's gonna have to share still..with a girl. We will see how it goes. But I know regardless, he is going to be an awesome big brother.

I was reading through a journal I kept when pregnant with Jack and was amazed at all I had accomplished by 20 weeks. I had already registered for my baby shower! WHAT?! I haven't even THOUGHT about a baby shower...

I have also been wondering if I am bigger this time around..but as luck would have it I am about the same size. Which means I still have a good 40lbs. to gain.

I'm just starting to try and grasp onto the concept that I am going to have 2 babies by this time next year. Hopefully I will be able to pull it together because now..when I think about it..it gives me panic attacks. No joke.

But on the flip side..It's A Girl!!!!